Alone

I'm lying in my bed. It's been days now. Ain't doing anything, you know? Just lying and staring. Maybe I'm like a cadaver, or hope to be one. I don't know. I don't know. I'm silent from the outside but my mind, oh my mind thinks everything. I'm listening to this song right now and I got carried away. Now my mood's in the deepest sea, great! I fall again. Again!!! I have no control of my emotions, I have no control of my body. This is I, alone and suffer. I can just complain about things, about stuff but I do nothing about them. I can't do anything but I don't try. That's me! The very sad-alone-and always-pity-herself girl. I'm no teenage girl, I'm an ADULT, for God's sake. And still... I do NOTHING... Nothing... Nothing's good about me.